Renegade Yogi

Intelligence and power

Power is something I fear.  I tend to play dumb.  It is out of laziness, you could say, or a distrust of my own abilities.

Intelligence is power, and I can remember only a few times when I have applied it well and past my normal boundaries.  I tend to think that most people don’t want to see the truth.  They are happy to live in the illusions that are created by others.  But the reality is that there is no truth.  There is only the madness of the world.  Not randomness, but shear madness.

Those times when I was most applied my intelligence were precipitated by exciting life changes and perhaps sleep deprivation.  I lost any patience for social niceties and focused purely using caffeine and will power.  The immensity of my life changes bore down on my will–tending toward bolstering my own sense of self instead of withering it.

I believe there is a way to recreate it.  Extreme physical fitness, focus of mind, and relaxation can all help.  Yoga and meditation seem like the best ways of doing it.  The key seems to be able to think clearly in times of high adrenal stimulation, and also to be able to recover enough not to have cortisol lows afterwards.