Renegade Yogi

Distracted mind

Meditation went by really quickly today. By the end of it I am usually just waiting for it to be over. Today, the alarm rang just as I was getting bored. Habituation?

I felt pretty distracted. Lots of images and self-talk going on in there. I couldn’t help but feel that I wasn’t identifying the distractions as they happened, but only later. I was reviewing them later to decide what type of distraction it was.

But once or twice, it felt like I decided while it happened. That felt more right.

I will say one thing for this mindfulness meditation: it has really expanded my understanding of my mind. Things look familiar in there. And much clearer than when I started. Instead of a muddled mess, it’s more like a clear mess. I am much more aware of exactly what it is that is on my mind–in a very experiential way.